Thursday, December 29, 2011

UPCOMING NEW YEAR 2012 - RESOLUTION?

This beautiful pecan pie was made by my husband who ever so delicately placed each pecan.

You might be wondering what this pie has to do with my making a New Year's resolution?  I won't dare tell you how many of the 4 pumpkin and pecan pies the two of us ate over the Thanksgiving holiday season.  Ok back to my sincere 2012 resolution.  This is the first time I have made a resolution and do intend to make every effort to keep it.  Recently I was diagnosed as a pre-diabetic.  This is not good news for anyone of course and it is especially tragic for someone whose diet isn't exactly what it should be.

My 2012 New Year's resolution is to work diligently on eating a more nutritious and healthy diet which in turn will hopefully keep future diabetes out of my life.

My husband is officially retired December 31, 2011.  I am so happy for him.  This morning it was if he was walking on air as he left for work with a smile on his face.  Usually it is a look of dread and his feet are like his shoes are made of concrete.  His retirement is for health reasons with the most significant being cardiac.

Retirement means we have many adjustments to make financially and to accept the necessary changes to our lifestyle.  This morning I was reading a blog post which in part said:
 
"Is there anyone on the planet having it worse than me right now?
When I am stuck on focusing on the negatives, when I feel like a victim and like things are going against me I ask myself this question.
The answer may not result in positive thoughts, but it can sure snap you of a somewhat childish “poor, poor me…” attitude pretty quickly. I understand that I have much to be grateful for in my life.
This question changes my perspective from a narrow, self-centred one into a much wider one. It helps me to lighten up about my situation. After I have changed my perspective I usually ask another question like:
What is the hidden opportunity within this situation?
That follow-up question is very helpful to keep your focus on how to solve a problem or get something good out a current situation. Rather than asking yourself “why?” over and over and thereby focusing on the negatives and making yourself feel worse and worse."

I am going to print the last paragraph and put it in a prominent place to remind myself and my husband that we are on the right track and we are OK. 
Please wish him good thoughts in being successful at getting his disability approved the first time out of the chute.

Happy New Year!



Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Many Changes To Come and Crochet

First let me  show you my latest creations(laughing under my breath).  Should the period be before or after the parenthesis?  I will check on that later.  That is funny too as I can't remember things more than 5 minutes if I am having a good day.  Cognitive problems if anyone is wondering.  Ok, ok back to my latest finished projects.


The pattern for the scarf on the left is courtesy of Redheart.  It is called, Colorful Corded Scarf and is pattern number LW2623.  It consists of only 4 rows and takes very little time.  I wish I had made it longer but that is my personal preference.
The scarf on the right is my pattern.  It consists of a V-stitch and 2 clusters.  I am not a pattern writer. 

Now on to my current works in progress.


Another work in progress I have is an amigurumi doll called Ponyo.  There is a childs movie about Ponyo which is very cute.  This pattern is courtesy of http://agamerswife.blogspot.com/2009/09/ponyo-pattern.html
Please don't judge my WIP to the one A Gamer's Wife  made as mine has been a real struggle and learning experience for me.  I need to find a video on how to attach hair.  That is my next challenge.  Yes, I have attached some paper eyes to give me an idea of where her hairline should be.  I took on this project as my 2 1/2 yr. old grandson loves Ponyo.

Now on to the changes about to come to mine and my husbands life.  I am on disability related to my health issues and now because of my husbands cardiac issues and neck/shoulder problems he is quitting his job which has become to difficult and dangerous for him to do.  This will happen beginning January 1, 2012.  At that time he will apply for Social Security Disability.

His health is the main concern here but we will have to make changes as far as our budget which I am certain will add stress to our lives. 

Yes, adjusting to having him home all day seven days a weeks might prove to be interesting.  Up to this point in our lives together we have faced everything with jokes, laughter and love.

I wish everyone a happy Wednesday.


Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Kindness and Friendship

Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a great battle.
by Saint Philo of Alexandria

My Brain and My Heart are my Temples. My true Religion is Kindness.
Dalai Lama


Like birds landing on a tree top together, and then dispersing, we are together for a very short time, so it makes sense to live in harmony, in unconditional friendship.
Bokar Rinpoche


Quotes courtesy of  http://blog.gaiam.com/quotes/topics/kindness

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Fibro Is Kicking My Butt

First I must say something positive.  I strive to do that every day.  It is a beautiful day, the sun is shining and it is going to be in the 60's again.  I am blessed with a wonderful family.

My son, his wife and 7 month old baby son came to visit on Saturday.  We had a great time.   My dear grandson is growing so fast.  I just marveled at all his new abilities.  Oh how he wants to walk.  I wish I could see him more frequently but distance prevents that.  We just try to enjoy every second we have with him as with all our grandchildren.

The past 2 days my legs have been in such pain.  My left leg being the worse.  Fibro is not funny.  There are those that pooh pooh the diagnosis and those that just don't care to understand.  Let me tell you it is real.  My muscles in my legs hurt and ache to the bone.  It is difficult to describe.  There is no comfortable position.  It starts at the top of my legs and ends at my ankles.  I am up and down so many times I could never keep count.  Hopefully it will pass soon.

I am supposed to be taking Maggie(our dog) out on a leash to restrict her activity as she has been diagnosed with hip dysplasia at the early age of 2 1/2 yrs.  Needless to say Maggie has been going out without me.  I try to limit her time outside and hope she won't take off on an adventure with her buddy, Elsie the beagle.  She is on a prescription weight loss regimen with the goal being a loss of 20 lbs.  She is doing fairly well with her new food and snack regimen.  I believe it is more difficult for my husband and me.  No more giving her food from the table or bits of our snacks.  We have to do what is best for her.

I did visit another blog today and found an amigurumi pattern for a turtle.  I am looking so forward to creating this little guy.  My dear dil loves turtles.
http://jonboycrochets.blogspot.com/2011/01/fred-turtle.html

I have sat too long and need to move.  Wishing everyone a good day.

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Crochet and Me

My current project is something for me.  It is an afghan pattern courtesy of www.redheart.com called the Windsor Ripple Throw.  I had a vision of the colors I wanted to use and when I went shopping they jumped right into my cart.  Do you find that happens with you?  This is a photo of my work in progress.

Recently I was surfing the net and an interesting blog caught my eye.  I was looking for something to crochet for my 10 yr. old granddaughter.  She is into Pokemon so this pattern was perfect.  I am new to amigurumi.  I must admit my finished product is a little rough but Addison loved little Pikachu.  Thank you Biz @ http://bizzycrochet.blogspot.com/2007/01/pokemon-look-alike-pikachu.html  for the free pattern.  I so appreciate everyone who shares there patterns.
 
I have also crocheted three scarves that were quick and easy.  They are a narrow, long scarf which I love.  I used bulky yarn and they turned out great.  I have intended them for Christmas gifts but I love two of them and they have made it into my winter wardrobe.  I can't help myself.  I do have a bag of new bulky yarn waiting to be turned into Christmas gifts. 
 
The Christmas crocheting is on hold this week as my Fibro and CFS want the spotlight this week.  My arms are very weak and capable of limited activity.  I hurt all over.  On top of all of that I am having the weirdest problem with my right jaw.  It has been about a week now.  It hurts, making chewing difficult and painful.  Yawning isn't fun at all.  Hopefully it will resolve soon.
 
My husband has decided to quit his job related to his health issues.  He has serious cardiac problems and now is having chronic angina.  His plan is to start the S.S. Disability process.  I am so glad he has made this decision.  Hopefully the disability process won't turn into a nightmare.
 
That is it until we meet again.  Who knows, maybe I will model the scarves for you.   On second thought maybe I will find a model.
 
 

Monday, October 24, 2011

Catch Up

Wow, I haven't posted since August.  Much has taken place since that time.

Approximately one month ago my husband had a stent placed in a previous graft site in his heart which was 90% occluded.  The cardiologist hoped this would help his shortness of breath.  Since the procedure my husband has been having angina which he didn't have prior to the procedure and increased shortness of breath.  His Dr. wasn't happy to hear about this at last Thurs. appt.  My DH will have another stress test on Friday which we hope doesn't evolve into another cardiac procedure.

Our dog, Maggie, had to stay in the kennel at our vet's for 2 nights during Jim's procedure.  This was her first experience with boarding and it turned out to be a nightmare for her.  She was traumatized.  She is a very timid dog anyway.  Jim and I were traumatized as well.  She was so happy to be out of there and home with us.

On a sad note I tell you that my pet pygmy goat, Daisy May, passed away unexpectedly.  She had been such a source of joy, smiles and love for me for the past 8 years.  I miss her so much. 

Stress as we all know can really pack a punch as far as how our body reacts.  I feel every muscle, ligament, tendon and joint at this point.  My headaches are back with a vengeance and the fatigue is overwhelming. 

Crocheting helps my stress but only when my hands aren't in pain and my arms aren't so weak.  I have had several days that I have crocheted and finished up some projects.

While I am complaining I just throw in how sick I am of all these menopausal related issues. :-)

Truly I grateful for every day Jim and I have together, for my children, my 3 wonderful grandchildren, our pets and life.

Monday, August 29, 2011

Why can't I be 16 again?

Drawing by Addison(dg)

My husband, who has had cardiac problems for many years is about to undergo another procedure.  We aren't sure what the outcome of the procedure will be or if a major surgery will be required.  This past several weeks has been very stressful for both of us.  My DH as you can imagine has so many thoughts, fears and worries going through his head. 

We do not live near any of our family and have basically no support system except for the two of us.  My adult children do not live near us and with their lives we don't want them to feel obligated to help us. 

The problem is that I don't drive any longer and haven't for 10 yrs.  My husband can drive us the two hours to the hospital but won't be able to drive us back.  Whether he stays in the hospital after the heart cath or is able to come home that night he won't be able to drive.  This is a major dilemma.

I decided I would take the driver's exam, written portion,  and get a permit so I could drive us home.  My DH would be the licensed driver supervising me, right?  This is how it worked when I was 16. I should add my husband has expressed many reservations about my idea.  Ha. 

I have been studying the drivers manual on-line and planned to take the written test this Wednesday and be able to drive on Friday when the procedure may occur.  Hubby is procrastinating with calling the clinic to confirm the date.  Anyway, I am off topic.  That happens frequently.    During my studying yesterday I read that permits are granted for first time drivers only under the age of 18.  Isn't that a crock?  That blew my plans right out of the water.  Yes, as you are probably thinking I have been concerned about my ability to drive and to drive that far.  My major problems when I quit driving were my coordination, memory, anxiety and fatigue.  Have these disappeared?  No, but they have improved.  There are so many variables here.  I know it is probably for the best. 

We so want to be able to rely on ourselves without troubling others.   We are facing a new chapter in our lives.  My DH is going to be filing for disability and we need to face the changes we may be required to make to live as independently as we can.

Excuse me for the jumble of thoughts.  I just needed to write them down.

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

A Much Over Due Thank You

In a post on June 19, 2011 Herrad at http://accessdenied-livingwithms.blogspot.com/ presented me with three blogging awards. 
Thank you so much Herrad.  Your acknowledgement and encouragement are greatly appreciated.  I accept these awards with much admiration and respect from an exceptional blogger, you, my dear friend Herrad.



  

"It's a Sun Shiney Day"


My title is something my now 10 year old granddaughter would say in her younger years.  I thought it was so sweet. 

The sun isn't shining outside nor did I wake up feeling very sunny myself.  Yesterday I decided I needed to give my right arm a rest from crocheting as it was hurting quite a bit.  My left arm has started having spasms.  Tends to p*** me off that I find a hobby I enjoy so much and I can't do it except when my body allows.  I know, I am lucky I can do it at all.  I am thankful for that.  Truly I am.

So yesterday instead of crocheting I thought I would back up my photo files on this darn contrary computer.  I put my wrist splint on and started to work.  Needless to say things did not go smoothly.  I could not get this computer to back up the last file for love nor money.  By the time I stopped my left shoulder and  neck were flared up.  

I get up this morning, turn on the computer and a box pops up.  "You have files ready to write to CD."  It worked.  Mission accomplished.  :-)

This is my last crochet project for baby Andrew.  I hope you enjoy.

I think I will go out and look at my lilies and visit my hummingbirds.  That is sure to bring a smile to my face.

Wishing everyone a reason to smile today.

Thursday, July 7, 2011

What Am I Doing?



It seems to be one of those days my brain functioning has taken a near total hiatus. I thought I would pop on Blogger and post something quickly. Why would I ever think I could do anything quickly anyway? That was my first mistake. I couldn't figure out how to answer comments, I posted a non-existent blog twice and kept having to log-in.



Thank you to those who commented on my last post with such kind words. I hope I can successfully show you my recent crocheting works.




I am having such a great time crocheting little baby hats. I seem to enjoy doing small projects rather than large. I have approx. 6 more rows on a large afghan I am making for my husband and can't make myself wrestle with that monster, especially in this heat. That is my excuse anyway and I think it makes perfect sense although I think he is a little worried. I also have a small throw I made just for me and all is left is a few rows of border and it is waiting in the wings for completion as well.



The crocheting had to be put on hold for a week recently as my lack of balance and coordination sent me tumbling into my lily garden. I admit I am stubborn and tend to do things I know my body is not capable of doing any longer but this just happened. My balance problems didn't seem to be an issue at the moment I was dead heading my lilies. I reached a little to far to the right and found myself in a clump of iris. Thank goodness I didn't take out any of my blooming lilies. I used my right hand in an attempt to break my fall causing immediate pain. Needless to say a trip to the emergency room was required with the doctor diagnosing a linear fracture in my radius near my wrist. So he splinted and wrapped me from my fingers to my elbow until I saw my family doctor in 2 days from then. My family doctor looked at the x-ray and found "no fracture" but a sprain of my wrist. He phoned the hospital and confirmed this diagnosis with the radiologist report. We live in rural America and x-rays aren't immediately read by a radiologist just the E.R. attending physician. My sprain is getting better. I still have pain with crocheting and bought me a small wrist support to wear and it also helps with typing and using the mouse.





My new grandson is growing by leaps and bounds. He spent 3 nights and 3 days in the hospital 3 weeks ago for a virus of unknown origin. He has wonderful parents of whom I am very proud.



We had our monthly visit in late June with our 10 year old granddaughter, Addie. We were sitting outside after the sunset and watching the fireflies over our neighbors soybean field and she leaned her head on my arm and said, "They are dancing a symphony over the field." How sweet she is and such a blessing.



That is all for now as I must get outside and dead head my lilies.


PS It took me 3 tries to post these pictures. Bah Humbug...








Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Hello Again



I have been obviously absent for some time. My shoulder and neck pain has required me to limit my time sitting at the computer. What a bummer when the computer has been such an important part of my life.

Luckily my son and dil were expecting in May so during the past winter I taught myself to crochet. I went crochet crazy. It was quite a challenge as reading, comprehending and following a pattern is mind boggling for me. It was a lot of frustration at times but worth every bit. I crocheted baby afghans, an adult size afghan and multiple baby hats. I must admit I am proud of these accomplishments considering my cognitive deficits.

My new grandson, Andrew Logan, was born on April 29, 2011. 7lbs 8oz, 20 in. long, healthy and beautiful. He brings my grandchild total to three. One granddaughter and two grandson's. What blessings each one is to my life.

I am doing fairly well. The summer heat is unbearable for me so my time outside is limited. My pain, spasms and energy level fluctuate daily.

I needed a change and went from long hair to an extremely short hair cut and I love it. So easy to care for.

My back is beginning to hurt so I need to get away from this computer.
Until next time.....