Wednesday, February 3, 2010

My Shell


turtle(:
Originally uploaded by cute(erthanyou)

This is how I have felt for the past few months. I tend to withdraw into myself or my shell like this turtle when feeling high stress and depression.

Depression is common with so many of us dealing with chronic illness and everyday life as well. I do believe I have seen a correlation with my moods and the season. Seasonal Affective Disorder? I think maybe.

Whatever the cause I know I am sick of feeling this way. Sometimes I feel more like this.



http://www.ict.mic.ul.ie/websites/2002/Jordana_Dolan/Tortoises%20Page.htm
I have not been able to find the words to describe how I am feeling. I didn't feel I had anything worth sharing in this blog.
Yesterday something happened in my life that required action be taken and I had to find words to express myself. My brain functions in neutral as a rule anyway so yesterday was extremely difficult for me. After a long talk with two friends and much thought I was able to put into writing my thoughts. It was a situation that involved a controversial issue in which I needed to help others see the need to practice tolerance. All I can say is I gave it my best shot and I hope it worked. Time will tell. I felt a great sense of accomplishment in dealing with the whole situation.
Am I out of my shell? I have been today. I got out in the sunshine and walked with my dog and took some pictures.
It is just an example of how a problem can turn into a blessing even if it is just a walk in the sun.