Tuesday, September 28, 2010

"I said what."


I was inspired to write this blog because of the kindness and thoughtfulness of one person. She dropped by my blog after three months of my being absent. I thank you for that dear Herrad.

My absence has been because I can't seem to be able to put anything into words. It seems my cognitive status is on the decline. This is my opinion anyway and I don't like the feeling one little bit. My short term memory I expected to go but not my long term memories.
I have found myself withdrawing from conversations with people and people in general. I don't feel I have anything to offer a discussion. I am feeling so inept. I am so thankful our social life is fairly inactive. I have even found myself withdrawing from on-line communities in which I have been very active.

In truth I am more scared than depressed. My husband is very supportive but sad to say he is having his own memory issues. We aren't spring chickens after all. It does make for interesting living around here though. Ha, Ha

I thank whoever has taken the time to read this. I have officially come out of the closet with my fear. Ahhhh.... I do believe I feel better.



I occupied my time since my last blog with my camera and anything that caught my eye in our yard. I hope you enjoy the photo's.



4 comments:

  1. Hi. I haven't read you before. I just clicked on a link over at DISABLED NOT DEAD and here I am. I understand your frustration with the issue of memory problems associated with MS. I am having them too, and not just the short term variety - but retrieval problems, tracking problems, and even some long term memory forgetfulness. It truly sucks; I'm too young for this.

    That said, I have to tell you that your entry today did not sound, in any way, problematic. You are coming across as intelligent and articulate. Just wrote to let you know that.

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  2. Hi Kelli,
    Our year ended with the death of our darling dog Spike, diagnosed with spinal cancer 18 nov dead on 18 dec.
    Then I had pneumonia jan/feb so only managed to write my blog visits were too much for me.
    Since I have been spending more time sitting in my wheelchair I have not been visiting.
    Tonight I decided to visit.
    I just passed by to say hello.
    I hope you are doing well.
    Really sad reading about your long term memory and not being able to put things into words.
    I hope you will be able to post pictures.
    Maggi looks good.
    Big hug.
    And lots of love to you.
    Herrad
    Love,

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  3. Hi Kelli,
    Thinking of you.
    Hugs, love.
    Herrad
    ps my e0mail is herrad@wanadoo.nl
    on SKYPE my name is herradf

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  4. hi kelli,
    I hope you are well, thinking of you, be great to hear from you.
    Please call by my blog and pick up your awards.
    Love,
    Herrad

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