Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Life and Loss

My dear friend Conni at http://heartshapedrock.blogspot.com/ is grieving the loss of her Dad at this time. He passed away unexpectedly on 4/16/10 from an apparent massive heart attack at his home. He was 55 yrs. young. My heart is aching for Conni and her family.

Her loss brought to the surface memories of my own loss of my Mom, Dad and brother. Unlike Conni's loss of her Dad the loss of my parents and brother were all expected as they were all the result of terminal illness. Whether it be unexpected or a prolonged process death brings forth such a gamut of emotions.

Looking back I realize the importance of the kindness and compassion of friends, community and family. This morning I was made aware of the illness of the partner of a fellow blogger at http://spinfortunaswheel.blogspot.com/ What a wonderful thing, that the blogging community can be there for one another during times such as these.

Never hesitate to reach out, never underestimate the power of a kind word and always share your love with your fellow man.

Monday, April 5, 2010

Happy Spring and Memories!




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This blog entry inspired by Grandpa Oddball's kindness and concern at http://getoddnews.com/

Yes, I am out of my shell and enjoying every moment of spring that I can.

I made the above video on one of my walks with my dog Maggie. The distance I am able to walk varies from day to day but walking stick in hand I go as far as I feel I can, enjoying all the beauty there is to behold and the sounds of nature.


My depression is better and I think the change in season has a great deal to do with that. I always look forward to spring and watching the new growth, mild temperatures and planting flowers.

My brain seems to be wanting to forget many more things than I would like these days. I have been struggling with this for months. Carrying on an intelligent conversation seems to be a major challenge for me. This is very frightening for me and has had me very depressed. I have periods when I feel so stupid and know I shouldn't feel that way as there is good reason for my problems but I don't want to lose any more of my memory! It hurts so much when someone says "remember when" and I have to say no. I want someone to give me back the key to my brain where I have so many memories trapped inside.

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MEMORIES

Memories,
Pressed between the Pages of my Mind

Memories,
Sweetened thru the Ages just like Wine

Quiet Thoughts come floating down
And settle softly to the Ground
Like golden Autumn Leaves around my Feet

I touched them and they burst apart
With sweet Memories,
Sweet Memories

Of holding Hands and red Bouquets
And Twilight trimmed in purple haze

And laughing Eyes and simple Ways
And quiet Nights and gentle Days with you

Memories,
Pressed between the Pages of my Mind

Memories,
Sweetened thru the Ages just like Wine,

Memories,
Memories,

Of holding Hands and red Bouquets
And Twilight trimmed in purple Haze

And laughing Eyes and simple Ways
And quiet Nights and gentle Days with you

Memories,
Memories,

Sweet Memories

( Words & Music By Bill Strange - Scott Davis )